This blog started out as a journal for me and I never really intended on anyone else seeing it. I just started writing in it a little over a month ago, although I considered doing it for over a year. I think I was just too private with my feelings to put it in writing. But then I thought that if I put these things in writing one day I would look back and I would see the road I had journeyed and where it had taken me. Little did I know that road was about to take a major turn. That's right I'm pregnant!
I still don't understand why I was asked to wait so long, but I know that the baby growing inside me is worth the wait!
Saturday morning I got up early because I had to proctor the ACT at Justin's school. I took a pregnancy test and started putting on my make-up. I took it because I didn't want to feel like I was waiting all weekend to see if I started or not. It was more a method of controlling my anxiety than really seeing if I was pregnant. Then I looked down and it said I was pregnant. I was completely stunned to say the least.
Then I was thinking, "Shoot! Justin had wanted to be a part of this." He was still sleeping in the other room, not knowing his life was about to change. I debated whether I should fess up to taking a test without him or pretend like I hadn't. In the end I was too excited to wait, so I woke him up, at 6:30 on a Saturday morning, to tell him he was going to be a Dad! Needless to say he was excited!
I went to the school and I had four hours to get lost in my own excitement, thoughts, and dreams. Then I took another test just to be sure. You can never see that positive test too many times, right? All day I felt nauseous, but I'm pretty sure it was all in my head. Because I have felt fine since then. :o)
Yesterday I found out I had to go take a blood test. I immediately got nervous, like I was taking the SAT and I wasn't going to pass or something. So I took another home test, just to make sure. (Like I said, you can't see it too many times.) I passed the home test and the blood test with excellant numbers...whatever that means.
I haven't stopped thanking the Lord since, but I should also thank my family & friends who supported me. We aren't telling people yet, because I know that I am at a higher risk for miscarrying. So I'll just keep believing in a healthy pregnancy and praising the Lord for working miracles!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
Patiently, Impatiently Waiting
Tomorrow I take the test. I am still optimistic, but a little nervous/anxious. A friend of mine posted this on FB this week and I felt like God was speaking to me.
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